Some of you may be thinking, “Well this is probably going to be depressing… Know the enemy? Shouldn’t she be saying know the Father or something?”
You know that phrase, “Keep your friends close and your enemies closer”? Although I don’t want to be “close” to Satan by any means, I think it’s just as important to know what he has to say about us just as much as what God says.
The enemy is constantly spinning more and more lies into my brain. Just today, I sang for my church for the second time in about a year or so. And I messed up. I didn’t come in at the right part. I missed half a verse. I squeaked. A LOT. I could go on and on and on about how terrible of a job I did today. People must have thought, “Wow, this girl shouldn’t be singing. She messes up more than your average worship leader. She’s no good.” And here’s where knowing the enemy comes in. He plants those seeds of doubt into my mind until I believe that I can’t do it. I’m just no good.
He constantly wants to scream that we suck and we aren’t good enough for anything. And yes, he is right. There’s nothing we can do to be good enough. But Christ gently whispers something totally different; He rejoices in our love for Him. He wants me to sing and proclaim who He is through worship, even if I mess up. Who cares what people think? Yes, I want to freely worship Him and I want to allow others to access the throne room of Christ, but I’m not singing for other people. I’m singing for my King. And He’s the only one who deserves it.
This is the hardest truth when leading worship in front of the church. You can get a big ego real fast. You can get into the mindset that you are singing to sound good and release an emotion through music. The moment we take God out of our worship, we let the pride in us win. Pride is truly the root of all evil. In fact, Jesus claims that the MEEK will inherit the kingdom. But lack of confidence is just as prideful as thinking too highly of ourselves. Thinking that God can’t use us is still prideful in that we don’t trust His ways are better than our own.
For me, today is hard because I want to believe those lies the enemy so easily plants in my mind. I want to retreat back into my little hole and stay wrapped up in my unbelief that God can’t possibly use someone so messed up like myself. Know the enemy. He so desperately wants to attack every weakness we have. He wants to yell loudly in the most convincing ways that we don’t need God. He always slips a little truth in. Yes, I did mess up today. That did happen. But the lie he wants to tell me is that I should never sing again. I’m not worthy to sing in front of others and especially God.
We are always asking ourselves, “how do I hear God’s voice?” but I truly believe it starts with knowing what the enemy says about us. Every person has heard the enemy’s voice. But whatever he says, God is surely to say just the opposite. Satan says, “You can’t sing”. God says, “Make a joyful noise to the Lord.” Satan says, “No one thinks you should be leading, since you CLEARLY don’t know when to come in. Oh, and you forgot the words.” God says, “You are singing for an audience of One.” Know the enemy so that you can slam him with these words of TRUTH. All he has ever done in our lives is destroy us. Whatever your situation, know the enemy’s lies so that you can face that with the truth that our Father so deeply wants us to believe.